I'm not in a happy mood really. Whenever I'm in depression, I ACT like I'm happy, but I'm not. And usually when I really happy, I'm just some downer. School has just been really bad for me for the first couple of weeks. I had to stay in because I didn't turn in some papers, and all this other crap.

But this is the part that literally made me cry for the rest of the day.

You know how parent's always say if a guy/girl (which ever gender you are) teases you, it means they like you, but I'm a freak. My parent's are always telling me "Well, they like you," and the I say, " Umm, no they don't. They would have to be people in stray jackets if they liked me," And then it makes me feel stupid. I don't know, those kind of things REALLY get to me. But this is what happened on Wednesday.

It was lunch recess and i sat down with my friends on a bench, and then we see a dweeb named Haakon walk up to us with his lunch (Haakons a kid that PRETENDS that he likes me,). Me and my friends Micayla, and Jenalyn moved to a table start eating. Then Haakon comes and sits next to me and then I moved to the other side, and then Nero came and sat, and then Ryan came., and yeah. Jenalyn, Me, and Micayla moved to a bench even farther. And then they left us alone, for like 2 minutes. Ryan and Haakon came circling around us like idiots, and then Haakon left awhile later. Then Ryan. Haakon sent Ryan to give me 'love gifts', (Parts of his lunch) which was first, a half eaten bar, and then a stick of cheese. I stomped on the bar and threw the string cheese away. Blah Blah, this is where it got difficult.

Afterwards, Micayla and Me walked around campus, and then Haakon, Nero, Ryan, and Micheal started walking with me and teased me. OVER AND OVER AGAIN. For 20 minutes. And then they got my crush Sterling and brought him up to me and he had no clue What the hell was going on, and that's when i pushed passed them and walked off to go cry, but I didn't cry. Micayla followed after me and then left for some reason. I sat at a another table and put my head into my arms and all of them kept saying i was going to cry. And they were right. I always hate it. the people that i like don't like me back. And it hurts me. I don't care if they don't like me back, even though if i am love with them, i just don't want them to think i'm an idiot. And now Sterling probably has this HUGE thought of me being a person in assistance of anger issues.
After that, Micayla kept telling me NOTHING was going to ever happen between me and Sterling. And then i felt complete crap.

Now i'm all depressed and all i've done for the past two days whenever I see Sterling's face is cry. He's the only person i'm technically in Love with. There's another kid that's my friend. I've known him since kindergarten and I kinda like him. His name is Micheal and my little sister keeps saying we make a Cute couple. Now i feel like even more crap.

Please help?


This is my 2nd account. So yeah, i'm still the same freak.